I can be who I am with Him. Crazy, messed up, frustrated, sometimes jealous and envious. He works it all out with me. The amount I can love, the time I can give, the hope, joy, and faith in me, is all enough for Him.
Linger in His embrace. I love to linger here with Him. I don't have to measure up to anyone else. He embraces me right here and allows me space to become. No dressing up. No fancy words. No make-up...lol. It's so restful here.
High School was a world of pressure. To fit in. Dressing, acting, doing, all as only acceptable to the peers. The talents and skills had to excel in order to be admired. One wrong move and you become despised. One day everyone could totally like you and the next, ignored. I lose breath just thinking about it. I did have many good times and friends too.
Motherhood was a world of the latest parenting magazine tips. How many home cooked meals versus take out. Who's children are best behaved. You could be exhausted, but don't dare look it. The mom who was on top of it all, level-headed, and pleasant despite it all wore the halo. When I found my niche, the comfort in my own skin let me be the mom they truly needed.
When I became a Christian, I thought that was all over. I was wrong. First, let me say that I was just exposed to my own experience. It doesn't mean every Christian or church is this way. My experience combined all of high school and motherhood in one. You not only had to have it altogether, but you had to serve tirelessly to be right in their eyes. I finally gave it all up and did my best for Him with what I already had.
Let's Move on: Moving through the ugly, let's just talk beautiful truth.
Jesus never asked us to be perfect or expect perfection of others ~ His love completes me and perfects me as I love others where they are, from where I am.
Nor, does he ask us to exhaust ourselves ~ He himself often rested well to refresh for the next time of serving. He invites us to real rest in His company.
He never said we should work hard to become like Him ~ He wants to be who He is in and through us via the unique gifts, skills, and personality He's instilled in us.
Jesus' unconditional love for me is what attracted me to Him. He welcomed me to be who I was. He continues to welcome me to be who I am right where I'm at. I'm constantly drawn to be with Him knowing this. My imperfections, failures, wrong words, never changes how much He loves me.
Galatians 6:14-16 ~
For my part, I am going to boast about nothing but the Cross of our Master, Jesus Christ. Because of that Cross, I have been crucified in relation to the world, set free from the stifling atmosphere of pleasing others and fitting into the little patterns that they dictate.
Can't you see the central issue in all this? It is not what you and I do—submit to circumcision, reject circumcision. It is what God is doing, and he is creating something totally new, a free life! All who walk by this standard are the true Israel of God—his chosen people. Peace and mercy on them!
Your turn, my turn:
I invite you to a time of lingering with Him just as you are. In the good, bad, in-between of all you are. I'll be doing the same.
He welcomes and accepts us best right here...and...You'll find yourself more drawn to be with Him because He does.