Refreshing Day 2 ~ Letting Go of the Weight of Who I've Been

My past demons are really trying wreaking havoc on my joy. Over the past few days I've been recalling who I was...all I'd done...the people I had children, my husband.

I'd already confessed and been forgiven, yet it came playing awful sounds in my head.

Entertaining that can only spiral downward into depression. I intended not to stay there.

I normally have to pray about the trauma of those who had hurt me. Let me tell you it was really bad. But, both my pain and the pain I caused are stories for another time when more healing has come.
I know better than to sit in the stench of all that nasty garbage. (Galatians 5:7-10)
I've been spending time with God on it all
I'm listening to a new voice
His voice
So loving, forgiving, calming, and refreshing
Every time the memories come to mind, I take it to Him. Jesus really soothes the soul doesn't he? 
He set my mind at ease.
He reminds me...
that I'm forgiven, made whole, and set free. (Galatians 5:1)
I need to stand on that truth.
I'm choosing gratitude for my past 
and verbally thanking God
How amazingly it has changed me.
It's how I am becoming.
Then first thing this morning, 
He refreshed me with the life-words in this song.
I'm feasting on it's truthful lyric ~
"I don't have to carry the weight of who I've been 
Cause I'm forgiven"
And So Are You...(1 John 1:9)


by: Santus Real

Well the past is playing with my head
And failure knocks me down again
I’m reminded of the wrong
That I have said and done
And that devil just wont let me forget

In this life
I know what I’ve been
But here in your arms
I know what I am

I’m forgiven
I’m forgiven
And I don’t have to carry
The weight of who I’ve been
Cause I’m forgiven

My mistakes are running through my mind
And I’ll relive my days, in the middle of the night
When I struggle with my pain, wrestle with my pride
Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry

In this life
I know what I’ve been
But here in your arms
I know what I am

[back to chorus]

When I don't fit in and I don’t feel like I belong anywhere
When I don’t measure up to much in this life
Oh, I’m a treasure in the arms of Christ

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Melanie said...

Oh my goodness! As soon as I read the first part of your blog post, this song started going through my head. Then at the bottom you had the lyrics to the SAME song! Love it!!! :)

Have a wonderful day!

Unknown said...

Hi Melanie. Isn't it awesome when that happens?! Love it. You have a great day too.